Wow, so it’s been quite a while since I last wrote a post, but my life has been super busy and really hectic recently! I spent a few days in Oxford visiting a friend, and am now settling into a new routine at home which seems to be working out for everyone.
I’ve been spending a lot of time at home alone (with my dog) recently, and it’s actually been super nice. It really feels like a fresh start. I have responsibilities at home which keep me motivated and give me some sort of ‘purpose’ during the day, and I really enjoy spending time with my pup, ‘Cookie’; taking her out for walks, being in charge of her meals and taking her to the vet etc.
It sounds silly, but I can see her feeling more comfortable around me and enjoying spending time with me, the more I spend time with her. I think a lot of people underestimate the value of a pet, they really help when you feel low, and give you a reason to get up in the morning. Plus dogs are incredibly loyal, they really become like your best friend.
But anyway-Fresh starts. I keep saying it, but this time last year I thought my life would be very different than it has turned out so far. And for a long time I punished myself for it, for making ‘wrong’ decisions and caring too much about what other people thought of me. But now I can see a brighter future and it feels like everything will be okay.
I hope it didn’t just Jinx it.
Earlier today whilst I was walking in the park with Cookie, I bumped into a friend from school. And after talking for a long time, we both came to the conclusion that things tend to happen for a reason, and there is no point in dwelling on the past. Many people I know from school have changed direction, taken a gap year, dropped out of uni, or made some other decision that they thought they never would. Because shit happens and we have to roll with the punches. I have found that generally, when bad things happen, accepting it makes it easier to deal with.
And so now I see everything that has happened as a chance for a fresh start, a new beginning. I plan on enjoying the next few months and then in September, getting stuck into a new degree at a university closer to home. A degree that makes me excited to start. And if it doesn’t work out, then so be it, but at least i’m trying.
I mean, that’s all any of us can do really, isn’t it?